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Subject: eggshell blue Jaguar

margaretj

19:57 17/06/2001 

I first noticed the eggshell blue car, which was an early model Jaguar, but the layers of paint were thickly painted, like a car which was 'done up' to hide the underlying rust. It did not appear to have a driver.

I was in an older car, following, and I felt my three children with me in the car. We were on a busy freeway in America or England. It had at least eight lanes of traffic on each side of the medium strip. I bumped into the left rear corner of the Jaguar with my car, and I don’t know whether I did it deliberately or not. After I bumped it (a little) a big crack formed from top to bottom of the car, and I thought how ridiculous this exaggeration of damage was.

Then, I decided, quite out of character, that I would not stop. I would be killed if I did, and I wantonly didn’t want to. So I sped off a couple of lanes over, and away, with my children. Our car, was brown, roundish, like an early Austin, but bigger, and it made a nice comfortable engine sound.

Dream edited for easier reading - JT, 2005

2004

Jane Teresa's View

Jane Teresa Anderson

Overview Interpretation & Dream Alchemy Practice suggestion

OVERVIEW INTERPRETATION

Hi Margaret,

How interesting that the jaguar that cracked so easily and dramatically when you bumped it was painted in eggshell blue. Eggshells crack easily and dramatically too. There are two clichés, ‘walking on egg shells’ and ‘treading on eggs’, which both mean trying not to upset a sensitive issue. Do you, or does someone you know, use these clichés?

What, in your life, has been painted eggshell blue? Does this colour have personal significance or has your unconscious mind used word play to imply that the cover-up job (the many layers of paint to hide the rust), no matter how thick, is still as delicate as eggshell?

The delicate car that reacts so dramatically to a tiny bump is a Jaguar. A jaguar is also an animal. When you think of a jaguar cat, what energy comes to mind? What do you see as the personality of a jaguar cat? How does it approach life? For example, you might feel that the big cat is always ready to attack, with claws sharpened. Or you might feel that the energy of the jaguar is superior. Your feeling for jaguar energy is a good clue to an energy you are dealing with – or, at least, treating carefully as if surrounded by eggshell – in your life.

The word ‘jag’ (sharp) is in jaguar too. Then think of the Jaguar car. Have you owned one? If so, when? The Jaguar in your dream may be a symbol referring you to the time when you drove the Jaguar, the time when the emotional rust set in, the time when you began the cover-up to hide the rust.

What is the personality of a Jaguar driver? This is another way to find your personal symbolism for the Jaguar car in your dream.

What could the rust be? Rust is a breaking down of a metal that was originally strong. When something rusts it eventually falls apart. Your dream car was an early model. It symbolises a younger you – an earlier model of who you are today. Now that you have contemplated the questions in the preceding paragraphs, you should have a fairly good idea of the kind of energy the jaguar represents or the time period in your life to which this refers. So, if you’ve decided, for example, that you had a Jaguar in 1977, then look back and ask yourself what began to fall apart then (rust) and what you have done, over the years, to cover this up (the layers of paint).

Or, if you’ve decided, for example, that a jaguar cat is always ready to attack, then ask yourself when, in your past, this energy was strong within you and when it began to break down. Ask yourself how you have covered it up and why: did you cover up the break down because you want to appear strong and ready to attack or did you cover up attack-mode because it caused you trouble (rust) and you want to hide this aspect of your past? Work with your own jaguar symbols to arrive at your conclusions.

You used the words "underlying rust". The unconscious mind uses rhyming. Could the hurt you have covered up be one of "underlying trust"?

The Jaguar did not appear to have a driver. Cars can represent our drive and motivation, so here is your old drive and motivation (the underlying jaguar energy) made drive-less by the cover-up and hiding.

What is the rust from your past that has caused you to be so fragile now? Who or what in your life now seems to be the eggshell you are cautious about breaking? The reason you may feel fearful of dealing with that other person’s dramas is likely to be due to a related unresolved issue within you. For example, if a relative is too easily aroused to attack (jaguar) then your fear of triggering this may be because you too are easily aroused into attack or, more likely, that bringing the issue into the open means facing your own issues and hurts about attack and defence and you’re trying to cover these up.

The eight-lane highway is a clue. What happened for you when you were eight, or eight years ago?

You were driving an early Austin. Apply the same thinking to the Austin as you have to the Jaguar to work out which part of your own energy the Austin represents. You described its engine sound as comfortable. Are you in a more comfortable position (emotionally and spiritually) today? Does this comfort empower you with a readiness to start chipping away at those cover-up layers, to approach those eggshells with less fear? This seems to be your attitude in the dream. No longer wary of protecting an issue you deliberately crack it open, and the first thing you learn is that what you have been protecting has been ridiculously exaggerated. A good start!

You sped off no longer held back by eggshell caution. You responded “wantonly” suggesting a new attitude of risk and adventure replacing your previous attitude of unnecessary caution.

DREAM ALCHEMY PRACTICE

Dialogue:

Your dialogue is between the eggshell blue Jaguar and the brown Austin. Start with the Austin saying, “Got you! Why are you such a drama queen?” and see what the Jaguar automatically answers. Keep it going for 20 minutes.

How to do this:

Give yourself no longer than 20 minutes. When you do this exercise do NOT think! Don’t plan ahead. Just let whatever happens happen. Let the two entities speak to each other on paper using whatever words come up. It’s a bit like writing a film script or play – but without the brain being involved.

How does this work?

By not thinking, by keeping the words flowing, you are letting your right brain and unconscious mind do most of the work. They created the original dream so they know what these symbols mean for you. They will reveal. You will be surprised.

More details on Dialogue as a Dream Alchemy Practice in: “Dream Alchemy”, by Jane Teresa Anderson, pages 321-4 and 333.

Jane Teresa Anderson

You can consult with Jane Teresa or her Dream Team and receive your interpretation by email within five working days.

ORIGINAL THREAD

Below is the original forum discussion on this dream, contributed before Jane Teresa's 2004 interpretation.

margaretj

09:23 14/06/2001 

I am interested to hear how others might interpret this dream

Jane Teresa Anderson

09:35 15/06/2001 

Hi Margaretj,

I can't stop here today, but at a quick scan I saw "underlying rust" as "Underlying trust" .... anyone like to take it up from here?

Jane Teresa Anderson

Shooting Star

19:28 15/06/2001 

Hi MargaretJ - Welcome I've been pondering on this one but have been working my butt off literally with an extremely complex dream of my own in the Members Forum which as usual is buzzing with ideas, insights and transformations.

How do you see eggshells? What do they mean for you?

Is there something you want to say to anyone but aren't that might be associated with Jane Teresa's underlying trust insight?

I get the sense there's something hidden in the word Jaguar and the symbol - not only is it a car but it's also a big fast cat (which relates to feminine energy) and you mention rust which is something that eats away at a structure.

Do you feel like you are travelling too fast and need to slow down or stop for a while but fearful of what will happen if you do? Do you feel it's more comfortable to stay where you are, or continue doing whatever it is you are doing that you really don't want to be doing any longer?

Anything in your life you need to crack as in open up?

That's all I can think of at present, hope that helps somewhat.

margaretj

20:09 17/06/2001 

a reply was received from Jane and Shooting Star when I first posted this on the public forum before realizing there was a private members forum too..

Jane suggested.. she saw 'underlying rust' as 'underlying trust'...

Shooting Star suggested... how do you see eggshells ? what do they mean for you ??

Is there something you want to say to anyone but arent that, might be associated with Jane Teresa' underlying trust insight ?

I get the sense that there's something hidden in the word Jaguar and the symbol - not only is it a car but its also a big fast car (which relates to feminine energy) and you mention rust which is something that eats away at a structure.

Do you feel you are travelling too fast and need to slow down or stop for a while but fearful of what will happen if you do ? Do you feel its more comfortable to stay where you are, or continue doing whatever it is you are doing that you really dont want to be doing any longer ?

margaretj

20:14 17/06/2001 

Shooting Star also suggested... anything in your life you need to crack as in open up ?

thank you from me to Jane and Shooting Star...

In reply... it is true I have discovered from contemplation over the last 3 months while I have not been working for anyone else, that I am afraid to step forward again because I dont trust the corporate world not to emotionally abuse me, and try and wreck my career and person, if I do. I am extremely good at my work, a woman at the top of a sector fo the world numerically dominated by white men who do in fact dominate in behaviour which is more like a wolf pack. That is, each one fighting to get one over everyone else all the time, and the one at the top is to be trusted least because he has the most to loose... the top position. They they have the right to 'fuck over' any female in the tribe, with the top one having the most rights, none of which is contested by anyone else. Not only that, the more victimising or submission practices of others they can do, the more of a hero they are to the other males. I can see a pattern of behaviour in my past experiences and from watching wildlife movies of wolves and apes.

margaretj

20:20 17/06/2001 

These men want my skills desperately at the beginning, keep out of my way and let me sort out the crap they have created by lack of responsibility on their part, then once they think I am really getting on top of it all, they start the power games to try to reduce me and crush me, so they get to stay on top. I have realised just recently, that I cant stand this experience again, yet all my skills are at their ace level now, and I am entitled to earn excellent rewards from years of hard gained experience and effort, and I want to do it.

Its like I have to go away and 'lick my wounds' or rest my bruises from a rugby game and rejuvenate myself after each contract so as to 'go into battle' wiht armour on, all systems 'on alert' to 'survive' the next contract. I have to contract to earn a living, and need the income, but cant we raise the level of experience ???

margaretj

20:23 17/06/2001 

The eggshell color represents new beginnings to me, healing color of blue, something very fragile which could break, baby eggs which do not survive to maturation if they fall out of the nest or encounter physical violence.

Yes, the comment from Shooting Star is probably absolutely right... this is all about my feminine energy... which is very, very strong and is 'noticed' even when it is 'invisible' which is the survival role I play around these wolves. That is, I consciously try not to play into any of the politics, emotional abuse, or sexual harrasement.

margaretj

20:25 17/06/2001 

I had another dream about a week ago, where I woke up to the sound of a lot of people at a party, and my whole family and friends were there - 150 or so of them - and in fact/reality, this was going on in another country at the time, and I wasnt there. But I guess I was there in the astral sense. Anyway, in the dream I found myself in a familiar room which was my sisters kitchen, and I realised I was in a pink see thru nightie and they might see my nakedness thru the nightie, so I moved out of the light so that I would be invisible. Then I woke up.

margaretj

20:29 17/06/2001 

As well as being the non conformist to the males in the corporate world, and lets face it I am never going to be a man, I was born a woman, I am also a 'problem' to my immediate family, particularly my mother and siblings, for I am emotionally independent; without saying a word, very strong and unforgettable, the one everyone unquestionably turns to lean on like a rock when in trouble, and yet not able to be dominated or 'bidden' to others expectations and needs. The rest of 'the tribe' are all compromised in their lives from where I see it, and of course, I dont 'fit in', so in order for them to be comfortable with themselves, they ignore me whenever they can.

margaretj

20:33 17/06/2001 

Right now, I would like to attract a situation, for the first time (in 30 years of working life) where I attract top corporate people who are 'where I am at'... that is above the animal jungle behaviour level with full intellectual faculties operating for the best development of all tribal members, no compromising, no denial of personal power of anyone... and most particuarly... people whom I can trust to behaviour with honest and integrity to themselves and others. No denial of personal power to anyone. The eggshells are likely to hatch into adult birds then.

margaretj

20:35 17/06/2001 

The Jaguar... I actually want to go FAST... so I gusess this is its significance. Why it seems like an old fake I have not yet understood.

The brown car with me and the children in it, represents to me my own comfort space of happiness over the last 17 years... which is the time I have been a solo parent to 3 children who stick to me thru thick and thin, and I them. The oldest is now 25. I deliberately set them examples of who to do the right thing in life, so this will explain some other parts of the eggshell dream.

what is the bottom of line of what this dream is telling me ?? any ideas... ?

thank you all for your contributions.

Shooting Star

20:47 17/06/2001 

Am pondering.....

Shooting Star

06:21 18/06/2001 

Your question - MargaretJ - can't we raise the level of experience?

YES!!! YOU can raise the level of your experience.

You say that the eggshell blue is new beginnings for you - when I first read your dream I got the feeling that there was something you really want to do/change in your life but when you stop to think about it your subconscious fear of making that change takes over and you decide to stick with what is old, familiar, safe and comfortable (the brown austin car) and off you go again.

You also mention the exaggeration of the damage done - is there something you need to look at where you are exaggerating something out of proportion to what has actually occurred????

You seem to know exactly how to deal with these men, you don't want to be doing it anymore, but you are choosing to still do it anyway.

My experience has been that whilst we might really hate a situation/pattern that keeps repeating itself which is being reflected to us by the outside world in our daily experiences and we may desperately want to change it, if our subconscious is not in agreement with our consciousness then we just simply cannot make the changes we want to.

By working with dreams we find the underlying cause of our subconscious beliefs which attract these situations and these beliefs usually go way back to an incident that occurred so long ago we have totally forgotten about it but if our subconscious has latched onto it it is then continually reinforced internally/externally.

We then reach a point where we just become so miserable with continually attracting that experience and so tired of doing so - our consciousness says ENOUGH - usually it is at this point we get a dream to help us make the changes we want and it is only when our subconsciou beliefs about ourselves are brought into conscious awareness that things start to change.

My experience has also been that when we work with our dreams we need to be extremely objective - as in treating the dream like it is another's in a sense to truly get the message. When I work with my dreams whilst I treat the symbolism personally as in what that symbol means for me I also step back a little and when writing anything about the dream after it's initial writing I do so in third person context. I will often go back over a dream a week or so later after my initial work on it in order to gain emotional distance from it as well.

This requires brutal honesty on our part as often we have to face parts of ourself that we really do not like AT ALL. Whatever we see in others is what exists within ourselves otherwise we simply just would not see it. If we do not trust others we are simply not trusting ourselves.

You say the members of your family compromise themselves, you don't feel you "fit in" and you are ignored, yet you are always there for them.

From your words I see that by you not doing what you want to do and choosing to stay with what is familiar because you have learned how to "deal with it", even though you feel you don't "fit in" you are compromising yourself and you are ignoring your own needs as a result. For me this is where the "fake, false" bit fits in. Are you being true to yourself or are you compromising you for money???

You want to attract a better situation (for the first time in 30 years of working life), you don't want to go through anymore of what has been occurring - so what is stopping you changing that???? I believe it is your subconscious beliefs that are doing so.

You have excellent skills, you know your stuff and you deserve to be treated better but if your subconscious doesn't believe that as well ........ nothing can change.

As I said in Anne's posting Vision - car accidents require us to stop, reassess a situation and our lives and they can indicate and "out of control" situation.

Blue is also associated with the throat chakra/communication and truth. Blue for me is always connected to speaking my truth.

In relation to your other dream - kitchens are where we prepare our food - food nurtures us - what are you giving to yourself at present that is nurturing YOU - in relation to family - anything????

You are in a pink nightie - clothes represent attitudes, depending on the occassion depends on how we dress - what role we play. Nighties we obviously wear to bed - Beds are associated with rest, time out and sexuality. You also say you hide your sexuality making you invisible but in doing so you are hiding who you truly are. In the dream I think? you also said you tried to make yourself invisible.

Pink is generally associated with unconditional love. You are concerned your nakedness will be seen through the pink garment so you move out of the light - when we move out of the light we move into darkness - we cannot clearly see anything. Are you concerned that if you show/give love to yourself and others your true nature will be exposed??? You also mention wearing armour and going into battle - what concerns you about dropping your armour and making yourself vulnerable (the nakedness). Being naked is being who we truly are - nothing to hide, no layers creating Barriers (like the layers of paint on the Jaguar -feminine energy)

Armour, egg shells etc. are also barriers we put up which don't allow others to see who we truly are and in relation to all of this I have been working relentlessly with a dream in the Members Forum (Dolphin Dreaming) which may interest you.

Hope that helps.

Shooting Star

06:37 18/06/2001 

I just noticed above you saw that I had said Jaguar was a big fast car - I have no idea what I wrote right now but in my head I was thinking big fast CAT which is where the feminine energy came into it.

You also say it is an early model Jaguar - can you pinpoint any one event which may have triggered your need to start protecting yourself with barriers in relation to your sexuality????

Cars usually represent our drive and motivation in life - how we move from one place (one state of mind) to another quickly and depending on who is driving or not driving relates to whether we are in control of our direction or not or as an example I was once being driven in a car by a female friend in a dream. I always see this friend as being a bit of a worrier and indecisive - the dream was showing me that quite out of character I was being indecisive and that the me who is not at all like that needed to take control of my direction in life again.

Now, for breakfast. I really hope that helps you Margaret.

Take Care.

margaretj

02:02 19/06/2001 

thank you shooting star....

there are many truths in what you say...

there is one particular one which did not occur to me at all, and I am going to work on unearthing from the depths..

I am aware I am not exposing my vulnerabilty... would you if you were among wolves... I think not... I would rather be among dolphins, waterfalls, loving people... then it would be worth while.

It is true I do not trust... amongst wolves, its not safe to do so.

The tribe I came from... exposing myself and my warmest loving means immediately being taken advantage of from the left corner where I least expect it. The recipient just blattently using me, and not aware of my loving space of offering. I tried with them for years, it is safer to walk away and build on other avenues of really loving people, whom I have found in my lifelong friends. Otherwise I become a walking pain stop.

Exageration... yes, I have gained something in the past from proclaiming the victimhood. Now, I dont want to communicate at all, unless the other party is worthwhile communicating with... that is, the offering of self is appreciated and valued...therefore I can leave that one behind and do.

giving to myself... its true there has been nothing for a long time... need people who are able to love me, physically around me, and money to provide luxuries. Neither has been evident for a long time... the alternative is the survival game, which I know well.

I am willing to be loved and to receive financially on an unconditional basis... the reality is, I havent found it yet.

there is a glimmer of change. I met a woman and a man whom I have spent time with. She and I talked woman to woman, and I think now, that she has spoken to him. He has become more considerate and loving in his friendship to me, which I think will last forever. We both knew that, when we met the first time. He is actually a man who is 'giving' to me, with no pressure, no strings attached, wants my respect purely because he respects me, and that is all. Its a pleasure to be in such a nice place. I would like lots more of this... People who come up to my level of what is 'pure' relationship between adults in this world which is so focused on a baser level.

Sexuality falls into the same behaviour parameter... a man who knows how to give unconditionally would find me a wonderful loving woman. I decided a long time ago, that I was not going to waste my energy and self on anyone who was not of this calibre. I have a lot of loving to catch up on when I meet such a man. so far, I have found such beings to be rare.. and definitely not of the wolf or ape world.

Compromising myself to make money... I have also thought about this many times. It is true I have done contracts at times just to earn a buck. However, this is part of the real world of living, and there is always something to be learned. I do not feel any need to change my career path.. its not what I do that doesnt feel OK, its the people I have had the misfortune to work with. I would like to do the same intellectual work with people like my friends I have just met. Who are 'gentle' towards me, dont cause me to even need to have any barriers up, give of themselves because they are secure people, and things are in a tranquil space of easiness... we all achieve.

so, what is within me which is creating the insecurity which is attracting other people who are insecure, so they attack as I defend. .,... this I go to ponder and dream...

no, I am not afraid to come out with the full me... in the circumstances where I am safe...

margaretj

02:22 19/06/2001 

dear Shooting Star..

which page/date is Dolphin Dreaming ?

thanks for your help

Dianne

09:42 19/06/2001 

Hi MJ

Glad you finally joined the forum, from your dream and the responses, you have got a lot of insight so far.

Star's 'Dolphin Dream' is posted in the 'Member's' forum. Click on the 'Members' on the top tool bar on the Home page (on every page actually) and enter your password. See you there!

Star

11:01 19/06/2001 

Hi MJ - hey that's a heck of a lot easier - hope you don't mind (?)

Dolphin Dreaming is now, last time I looked, right down the bottom of the first page in the Forum. Possibility that it may have even moved to the next "page" by now.

Enjoy, me thinks you will find what you are pondering and dreaming about within it.

And as always it has been a pleasure.

One thing I do want to add - The symbolism you have chosen re Wolf is extremely interesting.

See you in the Forum.