I walked into my bathroom. My mother was already in there doing something like hanging clothes. She was leaning over the bathtub to do what she was doing and my attention was drawn to the full bath. In the bath was my beloved cat lying submerged on her back with her eyes open.
I was horrified and screamed for Mum to look. Mum knew but was really casual and calm about it. She made no attempt to rescue my cat but when I queried whether she was dead, said I still had time to save her.
I pulled her from the water and she was alive. I immediately knew that my cat had been seduced by the warm water and the pleasure of it all had lulled her into a stupor where she lay submerged, intoxicated by the warmth.
I asked Mum when my cat would have eventually drowned or died. Mum replied casually "Oh about 8.30 or quarter to nine." I then looked at the clock and it was 10.30 which didn't make any sense.
I wrapped my cat up and went and sat near two people I know who were in my flat. I held her and thought that I was going to sob really hard but instead only a few tears fell. I remember rubbing her ears. They were significant. I put her down and she scurried off as usual. I was surprised at how quickly I got over it and how ok she was.
Note:
I got into a new relationship late July. After the initial honeymoon phase things changed and whilst I felt it wasn't quite right, I enjoyed bits and pieces and continued it. Deep down I had doubts but ignored them or justified them.
A couple of weeks after it began things changed quite noticeably (mid to late August - 8.30 and 8.45 symbolism?)
I see myself in my cat, seduced by the warmth and the pleasure in a situation that is very dangerous. Seduced to the point of needing rescuing by myself.
The relationship finished abruptly a couple of weeks ago and the lingering feeling has been a bit of shock that I let myself be put through what I did, that I compromised myself and failed to get out of (well sooner) a situation that was harming me.
The relationship was "very cool" too. It was really difficult on both sides to show emotions, feelings and affection. There must have been some warmth or payoff and it seduced me into staying but was ultimately really dangerous for me.
My Mum (my higher self?) knew what was going on but just watched. She knew rescue was still possible but it was up to me ultimately to get myself out of the deep warm water.
The time 10.25 represents late October to me. I had another dream back then about deliberating over a house for $27,000 which I understand now! Late October was when I was more aware of my situation and was questioning its future: what compromise it would mean for me to continue with this guy. It didn't look good for me but it did for him because everything had to be his way.
I held my cat (myself?) and thought I'd fall apart in front of others which would have been a bit embarrassing. I thought it would really distress me for a while but was amazed to get over it and back to normal life quickly.
I rubbed my cat’s ears which had something to do with knowing that the sensitivity of the fine hairs in her ears would have been her weakness to the warmth. This to me represents being perilously seduced by warm words and emotions.
I've just woken up and I feel like I've been through something tricky but have saved myself from a death by drowning. I'm excited by the immediate clarity as this hasn't happened much!
Dream edited for easier reading - JT, 2005
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