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Subject: Buzzing

Geoffo

20:05 15/07/2002 

I am in a dimly lit, sparsely furnished room. On my right is a woman, a beautiful blonde who looks like a goddess, shining in her elegant poise and glowing out from her stillness (like the high-fashion cover-model on a Vogue magazine, for example, hair in midair, frozen, smiling in white). Nothing is happening, I just want to stay there with her, frozen warm like this.

Suddenly through the window high up to my left a huge ugly blowfly comes in and starts making a loud persistent buzzing noise buzz, buzz, buzz and flying around chaotically up above near the ceiling on the other side of the room, away from us. I try to get rid of it by squirting it with some natural kind of fly-spray but the buzzing just gets louder. Goddess and I continue to watch the blowie, saying nothing.

Then all of a sudden the blowie turns and dives directly at me heading for my body and in the very instant that I absorb the blowfly into my body I wake up into the light.

Dream edited for easier reading - JT, 2005

2004

Jane Teresa's View

Jane Teresa Anderson

Overview Interpretation & Dream Alchemy Practice suggestion

OVERVIEW INTERPRETATION

Hi Geoffo,

The opposites in a dream help define the issues the dream is addressing. In your dream there is the stillness of the goddess versus the chaotic activity of the blowfly and there is the beauty of the goddess and the ugliness of the fly.

Firstly this suggests you are seeking a stillness of being but your quest is disrupted by chaos. The buzzing of the fly is like the buzzing of your mind, buzz, buzz, buzz, drowning out the peace you seek. The fly enters the room from high up, near the ceiling, as if emanating from your head, intrusive thoughts.

Secondly the beauty of the goddess is marred by the ugliness of the blowfly. A goddess is a revered person, an ideal, on a pedestal perhaps. Do you pursue ideals only to be upset when you find imperfections?

You described the goddess as shining and glowing and she reminded you of the colour white in the Vogue photograph. Shining, glowing, white light. The purpose of a goddess is to enlighten. Enlightenment is achieved by shining light into the dark to reveal the shadows, to reveal the buzzing blowflies, to know oneself more clearly in all shades of light and dark.

Remember that other people in your dream symbolise your thoughts and beliefs about them. The goddess and the blowfly both represent facets of your own self.

In your dream you suddenly realised that the blowfly is a part of your own nature, just as much as the goddess is. You tried to kill it, but it wouldn’t die. The only way to rid yourself of any belief you regard as negative is firstly to acknowledge it, to own it, to absorb it. You did this in the dream – you literally absorbed the blowfly. You absorbed it into your body, a place where you could feel it rather than know it. Owning a belief is an act of the heart, not of the intellect.

After absorbing the fly you woke up. You literally awakened to the blowfly, to the existence and beauty of the complexity of your being. Armed with this insight you may now wish to explore how the blowfly and the goddess affect the way you interact with the world. You can begin this with a dialogue.

DREAM ALCHEMY PRACTICE

Dialogue:

Your dialogue is between the goddess and the blowfly. Start with the goddess saying, “Do you ever sit still?” and see what the blowfly automatically answers. Keep it going for 20 minutes.

How to do this:

Give yourself no longer than 20 minutes. When you do this exercise do NOT think! Don’t plan ahead. Just let whatever happens happen. Let the two entities speak to each other on paper using whatever words come up. It’s a bit like writing a film script or play – but without the brain being involved.

How does this work?

By not thinking, by keeping the words flowing, you are letting your right brain and unconscious mind do most of the work. They created the original dream so they know what these symbols mean for you. They will reveal. You will be surprised.

More details on Dialogue as a Dream Alchemy Practice in: “Dream Alchemy”, by Jane Teresa Anderson, pages 321-4 and 333.

Jane Teresa Anderson

You can consult with Jane Teresa or her Dream Team and receive your interpretation by email within five working days.

ORIGINAL THREAD

Below is the original forum discussion on this dream, contributed before Jane Teresa's 2004 interpretation.

Lena

10:21 17/07/2002 

Hi Geoffo,

There's a stillness, sparseness, artificial nature to the setting which is consistent with the "frozen warm" feeling you had in the dream.

Something is trying to intrude on your introspection in a persistent and annoying way. I'd read it to say that maybe you have to take something on board that you don't find particularly attractive. (Maybe if you take that thing on board you may be able to "wake up into the light").

The goddess on your right sounds to me like your inner feminine energy. Something you put on a pedestal to look at rather than live through, perhaps?

Hope that helps with the decoding.

Lena

Oobe.

10:55 17/07/2002 

Hi Geoffo,

The room symbolically has little furniture, and is dim. This may indicate not much awareness to the issue from your part, and perhaps not enough "structure" or thought forms shared.

The blowfly, according to your emotional response, is negative, and usually associated with decay/renewal transformation.

Brisbane is nice, visited myself there last Monday.

Geoffo

20:24 17/07/2002 

Hi Lena & Oobe,

Lena - re: 'the goddess on the pedestal' - yes, you're right, I've been thinking about that aspect, that I am now ready to take on board the qualities of this particular model into myself, instead of only projecting this feminine energy outward onto her (which is all too easy to do for men). That process of taking in that 'anima projection' had already started, but at that same time there is also a complementary balance between me and my model which the 'buzzing' of the outside world will not disturb, provided I can only hold my balance and take in and absorb that outside world with us and not try and hold on to her alone and push the world away. All of this has not been easy to do, but I hope I'm steering the right course. Certainly the momentum is just incredible.

Oobe: - '...not much awareness to the issue' - no, I know very much what's going on, it's just happening low-key, the sparks aren't flying for everyone else to see, there's just this beautiful floating warmth between us in the room.

'not enough "structure"' - in this case that's a positive not a negative - it's the blowfly that wants to impose too much 'structure' by the insistence of its buzzing. 'Not enough structure' is one of the key requirements for synchronicity, I think - it's the apparent random factor/s 'bubbling up' into an otherwise ordered symbolic system that are the key, producing a balance of order and chaos. And thinking out loud, if chaos enters into order to produce a synchronicity, then perhaps the reverse is true for dreams: symbol-order bubbles up through the chaos of neurons randomly firing in sleep states to create an apparently time-bound dream. This is why dreams can incubated by focussing on a single (ordered) image before sleep, but synchronicities can only be incubated by divergent 'hyperassociating' and putting systems in flux. That's my view anyway.

Thanks to both of you for your comments, it's been a big help.

Geoffo (in 'the zone' like never before)

Angela

22:35 17/07/2002 

Hi Geoffo,

I could not stop thinking about this dream and was so curious what you would come up with as the meaning of the 'buzz'.

Holding the beauty within and not trying to push away the outside world! Fabulous! I understand now.

I am also wondering that the room was dimly lit because the goddess glow was so brilliant; everything else would naturally pale in comparison. Again, with her merging into you, as both you and Lena say, she becomes your own beauty and light, that you live through instead of project. I think she'll continue to glow, even if she moves from the stillness. People with this special glow don't catch light and reflect it only in certain positions. They radiate it everywhere they go.

When she is integrated, perhaps the whole room will light up. And the hue of everything will change. ?

I've been wondering, when the blowfly entered you, did it stop buzzing?

Angela.

Geoffo

19:58 18/07/2002 

Hi Angela

Re: 'did it stop buzzing?' Well, when the blowfly entered me, that was the instant that I woke up. So there was no more blowfly, but the 'buzzing' just immediately transferred over into waking life, into the myriad annoying 'blowfly-ness' all around and in me.

Also it just occurred to me reading your post Angela, that 'buzzing' implies bees too (not that I want to start on them all over again!).

And I like your comments on my model/goddess very much - much more than I can bring myself to put into words here actually - you capture the special essence of her and her image in me and the image of both of us in the room together very well. And when she is integrated, yes maybe everything will change, but it may also go beyond 'changing', it may all simply be 'unfolding'...

Geoffo

Geoffo

22:29 19/07/2002 

[press pause]

[sleep under Orion ascending]

[sleep all-day under unseen sun]

[sleep 16 hours straight and dream of trying to get on the Sydney Harbour Bridge, 'the Coathanger', but I can't, I'm slowed down and held up in its converging labyrinth of dark North Sydney approaches, the city of unseen bright glass towers on the other side of the harbour...]

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For the second time in my life, I've had one of those moments, one of those moments when I've been walking lonely along a dark street at night and I've just stopped dead on the footpath and realized that I've been completely wrong.

So let's start over again with this dream, shall we? Because the way out is the way through, I can't go back anymore and I can't try and suppress the pain of it anymore by sexual addiction ['it' = my recent separation, and my frustration that I haven't found someone that I can fully be with together and yet also meet halfway on a bridge between our complementary separateness] (for cross-link on my separation, see 'Trigeminal Neuralgia (3)' in Synchronicity Forum)] - I tried to drown all this out last night but I had yet two more sex-fused synchronicities that said 'I'm not letting go of you!' in the most unlikely place - entering a porno cinema [there's 3 in the Sydney CBD] midway through a video that I find out in the end credits is called 'The Ultimate Swimming Pool Orgy #3' [see my earlier Dream Forum threads 'The Healing at the Pool' and 'The Villain at the Pool'], directed by a Ray Anderson, and finding a DVD called 'Immortal', with the slogal 'Love is Forever' on the front and 'Welcome to Eternity' on the back, this after emailing Jane Teresa 2 hours earlier about 'the death of forever and the birth of eternity'.

So I walked home alone. And as I walked home I realized I'd have to start again on this dream. So I'll start again.

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Geoffo

23:01 19/07/2002 

[Restarted thread]

Header-note: On 10 July, I had a one-off Dream Coach session with Jane Teresa in Brisbane. This was alluded to (but not explicitly stated) in my 'Brisbane: Sunny and 19' thread in the Synchronicity Forum. It's not necessary to go into the details of the dream we worked on in that session, but the following dream arose out that meeting.

I can also testify that Jane Teresa is excellent as a Dream Coach. I got a lot more out of it than I expected and I found the session a great help and very enjoyable.

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(dreamlight 15/7/02)

I am in a dimly lit, sparsely furnished room. On my right is a woman, a beautiful blonde who looks like Jane Teresa Anderson, shining in her elegant poise and glowing out from her stillness. Nothing is happening, I just want to stay there with her, frozen warm like this.

Suddenly through the window high up to my left a huge ugly blowfly comes in and starts making a loud persistent buzzing noise buzzzzzzz buzzzzzzz buzzzzzzzzzzz and flying around chaotically up above near the ceiling on the other side of the room, away from us. I try to get rid of it by squirting it with some natural kind of fly-spray but the buzzing just gets louder. Jane Teresa (the Dream Goddess/model in white) and I continue to watch the blowie, saying nothing.

Then all of a sudden the blowie turns and dives directly at me heading for my body and in the very instant that I absorb the blowfly into my body I wake up into the light.

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I previously believed that the blowfly in this dream represented my irritations with the outside world. But I now realize that the insect represents my annoyance with Jane Teresa for not coming to meet me halfway on finding the common ground between dreams and synchronicity, in order to arrive at a more complete unified theory of what I call 'hypercognition' (which I prefer to 'psi', the term that Americans in particular like to use for a blanket over parapsychological phenomena), something I saw so much promise in 'The Shape of Things to Come'.

I realize I'm probably on my own in the Synchronicity Forum in being the only regular forum writer who has been drawn to JT's work specifically from the synchronicity angle, rather than from an interest in dreams. But I've been a bit frustrated with her sometimes looking at synchronicities as though they are just like dreams which to a great degree they are symbolic-interpretable but they are also inducable in a way that is different to dreams and I now think it's that difference that may hold the key [although I'm rambling on because I've just slept 16 hours straight], not to mention the local/nonlocal matrix.

Note that the blowfly is very small but persistent which means that this is a minor feeling of irritation. I could probably say that Jane Teresa is the Queen of Dream Interpretation and I thank her for being here for that, but as Severed Heads [best-ever electronic Aussie band] would say, there's a 'greater reward / the earth for you, but they may take me [an angel] any day / Won't you hold me now / I'm enthralled in a greater reward'.

If you [dear reader and JT, and both combined if you are JT reading this now] would only come and stand in the middle of the double mirrors (of dream-state and waking-life hypercognition realms) with me and just stand serene and still and look totally to the planes where the mirrors are parallel-aligned and see infinity open up both before and behind us in time...

Oobe

08:03 20/07/2002 

Geoffo, it is a difficult question, albeit with no answer?? If there are two mirrors facing each other, what is being reflected.

In my experience, the mind is not built to understand everything. At best we have to stand back and accept the "isness" of the moment. Fragments viewed from the multi-dimensionality network???

The greater reward to me in my life has been the "bliss". It occurs when the mind goes "duh"!, does not compute, 404, warning, software failure imminent, re-set. Also, it can just happen without warning.

A world teacher manifests diamonds to people out of the air, as symbols for "die-mind".

A Guru walks into a burger shop and makes the order "Make me one with everything".

Geoffo

14:28 21/07/2002 

Sorry, Oobe, I just can't agree or relate to any of that at all, but I understand where your viewpoint is coming from, 'unity in diversity' is fine by me...

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[I've found a exit out of this, I think. If anyone's interested, please see Synchronicity Forum (my 'home ground', this 'Buzzing' was an 'away game' for me) - "Episode 6..." - Geoffo.]

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